Swing when you love

"I crave always for love what my mother couldn't give me in my childhood." "you sought the love of your mother, because you loved her." "but she would not let me!" "she could not stop you." "then why was I unhappy all my life?" "because you didn't go down to the very roots of your… Continue reading Swing when you love

Shifting the center point

After I shifted obviously the center of view point from others and outside in to me and inner self, I can feel kind of blissful gratitude I am receiving by my choice. I chose actions what I need, because I know now my state. And as return I get the most wonderful, helpful and worthy… Continue reading Shifting the center point

Early in the morning

Never thought, I would love this early morning time for bringing out the waste.I miss my 'me-time', riding on a night train, reading and reading, waking up with stiff limbs, drinking black tea with plain bread served by the train cafeteria and taking off the train in another city, with different sunlight, new faces, foreign… Continue reading Early in the morning

Warrior

Drawing story of this week. Martial. As my therapist asked me, what would describe me the best for now, with no hesitation, in my head there was only one word coming up. Krieger. Warrior in German. I never wished to be a warrior, no, not even in fantasy. Maybe that's why I was so hard… Continue reading Warrior

mother and child

Dear Jona, dear Toni, today is mother's day in Germany and I would like to explain you about the relationship between you and me. Yes, you two came to this world as children from me and your father. But that doesn't mean, without me or father, you two weren't here today. Independently you two were,… Continue reading mother and child

Do

One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Naihanchi Hyong. One of ancient form. Bassai Hyong. One of ancient form. Bassai Hyong. One of ancient form. Bassai Hyong. One… Continue reading Do

Growing

Tomatoes are sprouting one after another!🤗 I ordered the soil for tomatoes, but they are not arrived yet. Would it be ok with just normal soil for flowers too?🤔 I failed usually at this state..by too much watering and they went moldy. I hope, I learned a bit more and make this time all to… Continue reading Growing

Courage

The scariest moment. When I start to believe, no more strength is left and my fear eats me up, so I can't find any way out at all. Nonetheless, trying right away again helps me to overcome my fear. It doesn't mean, I gained suddenly the strength nor the courage, I am not doing with… Continue reading Courage

I am that

Hwaranghyong I am reading the book, 'I am that' - talks with Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, and even if I'm not wise enough to follow and live like his words, because of my ignorance, I believe him. I can't understand everything what he said but I know he was saying the real and I will do… Continue reading I am that